okay, okay..

i'VE BEEN NEEDING SUPPORT NOW MORE THAN EVER AND THE ONE PERSON I NEEDED IT FROM THE MOST DON'T WANT TO BE THERE! PEOPLE THAT I AM NOT EVEN CLOSE TO ARE ALL IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, LET MNE KNOW.
AND I AOORECIATE IT SO MUCH.
BUT, YES, BUTT..
SINCE I AM GOING TO BE A SINGLE PARENT I FIGURED I BETTER START RESEARCHINGON HOW PEOPLE DO IT NOW, SOONER THAN LATER.
HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE DO IT? HOW AM I GONNA DO IT? I HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF THAT I CAN, BUT AS OF NOW MY HEAD IS SPINNING WITH THE HOW?
HOW,HOW,HOW???
IF YOU ALL KNOW OF ANY GOOD SINGLE PARENT SITES OR CHATS, LET ME KNOW..
COULD USE IT!
FOR ALL THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN AND ARE BEING THERE FOR ME, I DO APPRECIATE IT!

SO MUCH HURT....

well I'm beck..
yep, and alot has fucking changed for the worst!
I went back up to minnesota, because things were just not going well for me in missouri(MISERY).
so, I thought it would be better,but it ain't .I got a couple job prospects, and all thats good, but I also found out that I am pregnant..
The guy I have been with for 5 years is such, an ass, all of a sudden he needs to be alone! BULLSHIT! what the fuck, I ain't stupid and I know in my heart that there is someone else! I am so hurt, dissapointed, and angry! I am very dissapointed in that he ain't the guy I THOUGHT HE WAS AFTER ALL THESE YEARS! i HAVE DONE A LOT FOR HIM, AND THIS IS HOW HE REPAYS ME?
i'M KEEPING THE BABY!

Friday the 12th..

More blogs that I like..
Inanutshell, DearsirorMadam, thedaytoday ,There'll be MORE..I guess, I should really find them outside Blogger too, huh?
well there is ZOOT, shes got fans!
how the hell, do you get your blog better known? why the hell am I worried, about this shit? I guess, I wouldn't be writing it out in public, if I didn't want anyone to read it! Do I start another email account just to sign up to Blogexplosion? what the hell do you have to do to get your blog known? I mean, if it was something that people were getting into and being regulars, I would try harder with it, but there not, and YES: I did blog just to get stuff off my chest, but seeing other peoples blogs and what there doing, I want to be greedy, and have a good blog too..I just don't know how!If anyone can help me, Please do, because I am rreally starting to think that its not worth it!

Veterans day!

I have to say Happy Veterans day to all those who have fought for the USA!